Am I my brother’s keeper?

Am I my brother’s keeper?
No
I was never was a good brother
I cared, I really did
But didn’t know how to express it with being hurtful

I didn’t have the patience to hear you out

Called you stupid

I gave allot of hurt
Now at 30 years old I can’t even speak to you

The walls are too high
The cuts too deep

Brother I see what your doing
I see you trying but your doing it wrong
You don’t know any better
So it’s not your fault

But the fact that I can’t show you means I failed as a big brother
You won’t listen because all you hear is the 30 years of put downs in my voice
And that’s on me
The past is the past and that time is lost
We won’t get that back
Too far gone
We don’t get along
We are different people on different paths

I need to let go and let you be, just do you lil bro. Just do you

Don’t worry about a thing, let those grudges go. It’s not about proving to other people. Just be good, good to yourself and those you love. That chip on your shoulder will weigh you down. Resist hate and anger because that’s hate and anger for yourself.

But anyway, I know, you can’t hear me because after 30 years I do not know how to talk to you.

I am just sorry I can’t help you like a real brother should