An Insight

I had a thought, if I was doing my current job and was a key shareholder/owner of the business I think I would be quite happy.

Now this is strange.
Why you ask?

Because I do not like my job.

I do not like meaningless analysis.
I do not like the decisions the firm is taking in many ways.
I do not like the management of budgets over management of cash spend.

But I do like the purpose
I like trying to find opportunities
I like discussing and debating ideas
I enjoy getting stuck in

So I guess my issue isn’t the work per se, but what’s being done with my work or my time.
My work and time I feel are either being wasted on the the wrong things or the wrong outcome.

Now the wrong things are obvious, I.E. projects/ideas that do not have legs (Manoj bhargava – focus on slam dunks)
Now the outcomes are a little more tricky.

What outcomes do I want?
I want the consequences of my decision to flow back to me, right now the outcome, good or bad, go to someone else. I wanted those outcomes, definitely the good ones and the bad ones on logical level so I can learn

But I removed, so there is no real, primal, motivation.
I need to force it
And this why I do not feel the love I should be feeling.
This is what needs to change.

But yeah, in summary, it would be great but I just don’t have a piece of it.