Something is wrong
Something is wrong when my mind looks for highs
Looks for highs that my day doesn’t give
Highs in the weirdest of places
I’m shopping for example
I have never been an avid shopper, never ever
But you see cause my life isn’t giving my mind, my brain, the high it needs, it gets hooked on buying cool home furniture, funky sneakers and organic cold pressed olive oil which does wonders for your skin
It’s looks for highs in TV shows to fill the shallowness of my daily existence
I first noticed it on Black Friday, I got an adrenaline rush from all the items I bought. The feeling was a buzz, I could no longer focus on work that day, my only concern was what other bargains I could snap up
You have to have the double insulsted latte glasses when the homies come round
I do it with so many things, it’s my mind’s search for the higb
The search to fill the hole in my life the 8-10 hours of work leaves me with
The high it’s yearning because it can do so much more but I make it work on PowerPoint formatting
The challenge it needs to solve something that doesn’t have a pre set format
The scanning of Instagram, the watching of YouTube videos and the binging of Netflix are all me chasing the same scream
This is what I do with my time
This and little else
Little time will be left to do things I really enjoy
Things that are self sustaining
Things that I am meant to be doing
Stranger in Sydney 