Start they say

I mean what do I now?
I will tell you what I know
I know this.

Start somewhere, start where?
And where is somewhere?
Yeah your right, we got to start somewhere, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
But right, you have to start right.
Can’t be starting wrong, because that just takes you down the wrong way, path.
Need to do the right thing.
Not the easy thing.
Not the most money making thing. What is the right thing?

Durr, it’s the thing that you can do that will create the greatest good in the world.
So easy huh?
What greatest good?
What greatest good can I do?
I mean the great good could be many things. Is it to design artistic pottery? Or writing? Or running tour groups? Bring those sweet middle Greece sausages?

I can’t take the easy way again.

I took the easy way when I got an office job.
Except it isn’t easy.
I bust my balls.
I do things I don’t like.
I am two faced.
A tool. That word always makes me jump. Am I a tool?
Not myself, letting other people use me.
Dishonest.
Game playing.
That’s me.
It’s true.
I started wrong.

Where I start needs to be right and the greatest good.
Needs to be the best step, not just any step, the best greatest good step.

Procrastination needs to be a sign of something.
Maybe a sign of this is things I don’t want to do.
Maybe it’s warning like this isnt me, these thing I think of doing.
Procrastination.
Listen to it.

All I know is I have nothing else on and work is consuming me
I need a sign or something.
Got to start cause not starting is not getting me anywhere.

It’s as simple as that