Things are not perfect right now.
Allot of things are missing.
No house or car. I don’t have a job I love or like. The side hustle isn’t off the ground. Not a great relationship with the family and losing contact with friends.
Added pressure of a loved one on the way.
Sometimes I feel it’s just one second from all breaking.
One badly placed comment, an unchecked thought or an email in anger.
The truth is its only ever one moment away from it all being choas, darkness and black.
Just a moment away, we are but at mercy.
Let your will be done.
But it’s been good
Your will has been good and I need to do a better job of remembering that.
Good food and drink, did you ever try foie gras in France? Or drink Augustiner in Munich?
Good friends who helped me become who I am.
Enemies who I hated and drove me to push harder
Sweet success of achieving goals that seemed impossible
Failures learnt from that leave there mark on me today
Family who ultimately gave me everything worth having, everything worth giving and everything worth loving.
And to my new family who taught me a new way to love and have changed my life like nothing else.
My life is for them. For them only.
These are the things I forget.
The things I need to remember.
Because soon, it could all be over.
Pain awaits us all as does peace.
It’s the peace I need to remember.
Stranger in Sydney 