Entitled To Time?

“Time is mine, I own it” or “When I wake, the next 24 hours is mine” or “I allot it how I see fit”

Or

“At 9am I will do this, at 10am this, so on and etc”‘

Or

“Please do not impede on this time because its mine, not yours, so I gift you with some of my time, be grateful”

This is my current mentality towards time

Its strange this, really strange

The first reason is because I waste so much time. I waste it on the internet, YouTube, blogs, texting, porn or any other way I find to distract myself from what is really going on around me

My dopamine addiction is real and I can’t get away from it and I feed it through wasting my time in different novelties

Now if someone were to ask for a piece of that time I would be really upset, even a friend calling me can really bother me.

Don’t come past on a Sunday night, that time is for me and me alone to dread the oncoming of the week

Now the second funny thing is time is not mine

I do not own it, this time on earth is a gift

I did not join this world on my own volition nor will I leave at my own will

So in essence the time I have is not mine, just like the moon and the sun. These are gifts to be enjoyed and shared with everyone in the world. To claim ownership is laughable.

Me being a miser with my time in general is unhealthy because of the sense of entitlement I feel and the hostility it creates to the people who are in my life

If anything I need to miser where I focus when I have being alone with no one else around

I do not own time

There is no such thing as “my time”

There are only moments, present moments

This is where I need to be, to live, to focus

If I am going to have any chance at this