Tired of Talking

Dear …..

I wrote you a letter a couple months back, I am not sure if you ever got it.

In any case, I probably wrote it more for myself then I did for you.

Allot of my writing to you has been like that.

Maybe allot of the things “we” do is for me.

And allot of the things “we” do is for you.

All relationships are selfish to some extent.

I wanted to touch on something you said in our last exchange.

In fact it’s something we both said

“I am tired of talking

Talking about the same thing”

And it made me think;

Is our relationship enabling?

Do we just enable each other’s inactivity/laziness/procrastination?

Are we encouraging inaction?

Is my laziness rewarded when I write to you

Do I reward your weakness?

Honestly?

I mean some hard truths for myself are as follows

I read rather read/watch then experience

I surf the internet rather than sit in room and think

I care about myself before creating values for others

I do allot for the gratification of others, for the approval of others

Am I a good enough friend to tell you these things?

“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results”

We are talking about the same thing and expecting different results.

So lets talks about different things

Not about what we are going to do

Or like to do

Something different

Or maybe we just stop talking

And only talk when we have the courage to say the truth

Not only say it but to live it, live it and be it

Hopefully we talk soon