I don’t mean love in the romantic sense. I mean it more in the acting with love to your fellow human sense. This post is about some of the struggles I have experienced whilst acting with love.

The first thing is the struggle of being kind to myself and people in general. My own poisonous self talk fuels smart arse remarks to those around me as I ‘make fun’ of them. These comments as harmless as they seem are not coming from a place of love. Really I am just trying to make myself feel better whilst in some ways putting the other person down.

I try to combat this by looking my self in the mirror and saying

God loves you
God made you
God makes no mistakes
I love you and you are a good person

As corny as this sounds, it does help. The other is just to say nothing and try not to be that funny cool guy because you are fine just the way you are.

The other area is my own vindictiveness. I struggle to let go of vindictive behaviour when I feel that I have been ‘wronged’. I want to take vengeance out on the person. The worst part about it is that I am aware of it whilst it’s occuring.

I mean to say I catch the moment. The moment when my anger turns on.

My issue is I choose to follow through with my anger.

To combat this I try to do an act of kindness, either to the perceived perpetrator or to some one else.
The act of kindness could be thinking of something nice to say, a message to check up on a friend or an act of self kindness, stretching or watching my favourite TV show.

Nothing worth doing is easy and the above is only the start of my struggles of doing things with love, but already I see that’s it’s worth it. It brings a certain colour or dynamic to things that wasn’t their before.

Hopefully I can continue and improve on my progress so far, the only thing in my way is me.