Contradictions

I want to make a million dollars and help the boat people be free
Lead men to greatness but live in a mountain village overlooking the sea
To say my opinion but be liked by all
Speak the honest truth and be comfortable
Be a playboy and loyal to my wife
Walk the line and not cross it
Be where I was born and where I am from
Live with monks in isolation and drink myself to distraction
Stop the war in Syria but feel the glory of Achilles
To see my enemies bleed but forgive like a Christian
Own a three storey terrace debt free
Wear Versace humbly
Understand Shakespeare and laugh at Will Ferrell
Live clean whilst smoking cigarettes and drinking whisky
I want to be loved by God but I hate myself